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This Inevitable Ruin. Is there hope in the darkness?

I consider myself a smart and well read man, so up until recently I was surprised that I had never heart the the the concept of "This Inevitable Ruin" before.  It's an idea or concept that downfall and destruction is unavoidable.   That chaos is an unchangeable outcome no matter what actions we take.  

That what ever victory we obtain will have a high psychological and moral price, and may be short lived.  

As my own family, friends, and readers face an unknown future on so many fronts I wonder if  such "Inevitable Ruin" awaits us?  If it awaits our country or even our world?

I am not a nihilist but the concept has been ringing in my ears lately as we seem to careen from one crisis - be it personal, economic, local, state wide, natural or global.  

This article has started and stopped many times, yet I can't seem to get it right.  I even played around with an AI program to see if it would help focus my thoughts, it did not.  Nor did I like the idea of using such a program.   It's a tool but once you get past spell checking and grammar, it seemed as if there was no more soul to the words that I was typing.   Inside my head is a jumbled mess of emotions, thoughts, half baked ideas and even though it's a mess...it's my mess.

In the past two or three years things just seem to have fallen apart on both a personal and national level.   I wish I could point out a particular moment in time when things started to go wrong.  

Harambe - if you know, you know

The question becomes, what to do about it.  

It's not easy to have hope when it feels like the world is crashing down around you.  However to quote a famous line from the novel Game of Thrones.  The quote comes from one of the characters that sows division for his own advantage.   The quote "Chaos is a ladder."

In this particular case, the character of Petyr Bealish argues the individual can use the disorder of the times to find succuss; climbing the ladder, by using that disorder to their advantage.  Sometimes my manipulation others or creating divisions.  It's using that chaos to achieve some goal.

However, I like to think of it this way.  In time of upheaval you can use what has been broken to create something new.  Can we take the broken pieces and recreate something new and better?   I would like to think we can.

I may not particularly have cared for or even liked the changes in my career that have been forced upon me, however I now am in a position that does offer me profit sharing and I am building towards a goal.   I've also reached the conclusion that if I can keep this job for two years - that if something changes after that, it does not matter.   I'm done.   I'll be in a position to retire.  That I will retire.  Anything past the age of 62, is basically "bonus" money.

It's become important for me to keep this job for two years, I'm taking the broken pieces of my life and trying to organize them in such a way that I can work towards a goal.   In this case, retiring.   If after that two years, as long as I have a job then it doesn't matter.   I can work or leave at any time...but I know that I don't have to worry about the future.  It may be a bit of a struggle, but I'm done

As a society I believe we can as well.  This is not the America that I grew up in and it's up to my generation to at least prepare the next ones for the chaos and upheaval the best we can.   To put the idea in their heads that "We fucked up.  We are sorry, but you have the tools and experience to do better."

I truly believe that the conservative response to the "rise of Socialism" in the youth of America is a tacit admission that the concept of American Capitalism has failed.   However what the conservative's call "Socialism" really isn't what the majority of Americans consider Socialism. 

I'm publishing this as is.   Jumbled thoughts and all, maybe it will help you in some way, maybe your in need some clarification and this jumbled mess will help you.  Maybe not

It really doesn't matter.   Just remember that your not alone out there in these weird and touchy times.  That your thoughts, your needs, your desires are important.  That somehow we will find a way through.   We always have, we always will.  Together.   


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