When I sat down at the computer recently to type all of this out, I let out frustrated sigh. I had plans to release a completely different blog post long before this date but over the last two weeks or so I've done everything I could do but actually work on the yard, or write, or just do anything that was constructive. When you are moving towards a dream or an idea or...well anything really, you can't break the chain. Even if it's just 10 minutes a day working, that is constructive. I have an addiction. It's not to drugs or alcohol and in a way that would be a bit more excusable. I have an addiction to dopamine . Dopamine simply is a chemical in your brain that makes you feel good, and it in turn unleashes other "pleasure" chemicals in your brain. In my case it a program called Second Life, (SL) which honestly, I used to be on all the time in the early 2000's. It's hard to explain but the term multius...
I'm really not in the mood for this. It's raining again and I am on the phone making calls and sending emails and texts; letting myself get frustrated over things that I know, deep down in my soul, that I can not control. I'm very disappointed in people right now. Roughly two weeks or so ago I started on a quest to find a small flock of goats of clear some land. I have made phone calls, texted people, contacted websites and made inquires on sources like Reddit and Facebook. I even spoke to a few Amish that live in the area. Leads were given to me by various sources, companies were found and contacts made via text and voice mail, however, no one got back to me. Not a single one. No call back from the local 4 - H club. No call back from the goat farmer. Emails went unanswered. Well that's not true. One company did get back to me but the cost was higher than I expected. Actual...